A Vision...but its hard to see - the computer screen is burning my retinas...

as I am sitting here at my nice desk, using my nice computer,

at this nationally recognized association...

Good pay, good Ben's, good people... Good resume builder...

but I think... I am not sure - but I think just now I --- I don't like it anymore....

nothing happened.

this vision just overtook me...

I get up early to fight traffic, stare at a buzzing screen, get hunched over at the desk,

work on creating ads, pamphlets, newsletters, press releases and the sort - it is interesting but - YIKES!

I do email and phone calls during the day with people

who LOVE us too much -- or HATE us too much...

I fight traffic to get home...

Then have to clean - dishes, laundry... You name it.

Take the dogs out, make dinner, organize bills...

Then go to bed early so I can do it all over again....

besides LOOKING Good on a resume....

I don't see that this "old men's club"

really has anything to offer me down the road...

I see no advancement coming my way....

I don't know if I can make it a year like this...

but what?

if I have to have a office job - this is the best office job I've ever had...

I need to make above a certain amount of

money (and regularly) to survive in the DC area....

while i do interesting things here most days, I am not doing what I really enjoy...

I don't feel I am really helping anyone in anyway -

and I don't think I am growing from the work I do....

in addition to my work - I do at least 70% of the work for my co-worker...

I am the communications assistant -- and he is the SENIOR comm. assist.

But doesn't even know how to load paper into the computer printer....

but he has a Willy and so he must be "senior" material....

when I help him with a job - he gets/takes credit....

only one of my managers seems to have a brain - and a compassionate nature...

** Harumph!! **

I'm really over it.

...maybe tomorrow I'll change my mind...