More to Ponder
It has had a few days to sink in - and I think I am going to be okay with being 26 years old, though I still have my worries.
For example... this is my last year in my "mid-twenties". Next year I will be in move to my "late twenties". The Mid-20's are said to be the best... you are at your prime in many minds - its your peak, supposedly. And what awaits me next is my thirties. Yikes...
Somedays I feel just as helpless as a 12 year old girl and at other times I feel as though I am just a goofy 18 year old... and there are the days that I already feel 35...
I am sure EVERYONE goes through these feelings...
Do you notice that when you reach a certain age, people have various expectations about where you should be in life? Very often I feel like a responsible adult on the outside - and a scared child on the inside.
I have a respectable job, own a car, share a very nice apartment with my boyfriend of over a year, I have 2 wonderful puppies, and enjoy watching educational programing and making artsy crafts (or trying to). In the last few years I have had a greater respect for my parents and what they went thru to raise my brother and I, and I try to manage my bills.
But I am not engaged or married, I have no children or plans for any, I have little to no savings, I don't have anything that will grow in value - like antiques, property, or stock... I look forward to seeing the Real World, Sponge Bob, Looney Tunes, and other silly shows.
I am smack dab in the middle of teenage angst and midlife crisis. I don't necessarily feel unhappy or that I am missing out, but I sometimes feel I should be doing something else.
So is the Mid-20s and Late-20s meant to be among the best years of our lives?
I found this quote on the internet somewhere:
"Twentysomethings face an overwhelming number of choices regarding careers, finances, living situations, and relationships. This period is, in fact, a whirlwind of new responsibilities and freedoms that can make young people feel helpless, indecisive, and panicked."
THAT IS JUST HOW I AM FEELING NOW!!
And with my parents split - I think it has really highlighted those feelings in me.
For the past year I have had an internal struggle with:
- figuring out a direction for myself/life
- figuring/shaping my personal identity and spiritual beliefs
- dealing with my true value and trying to sort through my shortcomings
- making adult decisions/choices for myself and my future
- balance the aspects of personal and professional life
Guess What -- I still have no answers.... I have a feeling no one ever does.
So - I suppose that's really what life is about -- trying to sort it out best for you, and treat everyone you see how you want to be treated. Love your friends, family - live a good and honest life - and have faith in your heart...
Otherwise you worry about turning 27 next December... and then 30 - 40 - 50....
For example... this is my last year in my "mid-twenties". Next year I will be in move to my "late twenties". The Mid-20's are said to be the best... you are at your prime in many minds - its your peak, supposedly. And what awaits me next is my thirties. Yikes...
Somedays I feel just as helpless as a 12 year old girl and at other times I feel as though I am just a goofy 18 year old... and there are the days that I already feel 35...
I am sure EVERYONE goes through these feelings...
Do you notice that when you reach a certain age, people have various expectations about where you should be in life? Very often I feel like a responsible adult on the outside - and a scared child on the inside.
I have a respectable job, own a car, share a very nice apartment with my boyfriend of over a year, I have 2 wonderful puppies, and enjoy watching educational programing and making artsy crafts (or trying to). In the last few years I have had a greater respect for my parents and what they went thru to raise my brother and I, and I try to manage my bills.
But I am not engaged or married, I have no children or plans for any, I have little to no savings, I don't have anything that will grow in value - like antiques, property, or stock... I look forward to seeing the Real World, Sponge Bob, Looney Tunes, and other silly shows.
I am smack dab in the middle of teenage angst and midlife crisis. I don't necessarily feel unhappy or that I am missing out, but I sometimes feel I should be doing something else.
So is the Mid-20s and Late-20s meant to be among the best years of our lives?
I found this quote on the internet somewhere:
"Twentysomethings face an overwhelming number of choices regarding careers, finances, living situations, and relationships. This period is, in fact, a whirlwind of new responsibilities and freedoms that can make young people feel helpless, indecisive, and panicked."
THAT IS JUST HOW I AM FEELING NOW!!
And with my parents split - I think it has really highlighted those feelings in me.
For the past year I have had an internal struggle with:
- figuring out a direction for myself/life
- figuring/shaping my personal identity and spiritual beliefs
- dealing with my true value and trying to sort through my shortcomings
- making adult decisions/choices for myself and my future
- balance the aspects of personal and professional life
Guess What -- I still have no answers.... I have a feeling no one ever does.
So - I suppose that's really what life is about -- trying to sort it out best for you, and treat everyone you see how you want to be treated. Love your friends, family - live a good and honest life - and have faith in your heart...
Otherwise you worry about turning 27 next December... and then 30 - 40 - 50....
posted by sarnra at 12/07/2004 10:49:00 AM
2 Comments:
UNBELIEVABLE . . . while I too remember the mid-20 crisis that you currently endure, at 28 years-old, I am still plagued with many of the same feelings and dilemmas that abound almost all of the individuals of our era and ages (at least the realistic ones willing to admit their defaults, participate in self-criticism, and value the little things in life). What you address, mention and make note of so eloquently and realistically is something that tumbles and turns in all of us, at least at some point in time . . . we know it is there, we know it desires attention, we just don’t know how to handle it. So, in the interim, we passively wait our turn for the day of realization, the moment of clarity, the impending epiphany that will relieve our worries . . . and that is all we can do . . . passively wait. However, solace can be found in the endearing fact that while we passively wait, we don’t wait alone . . . after all, WE ARE ALL WAITING TOGETHER . . . you hold my hand and I will hold yours . . . is it a deal?
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